Hi. I'm Sam.: Pushing Buttons

Pushing Buttons

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Over the past few days I feel like the universe has been taking the piss a little bit.

Thursday I was asked out at work by the hottest customer (looked just like Jake Gyllenhaal; seriously!) - I said no...

Friday night the fittest gay redhead came in and kept complimenting my butt (my waist is a little slim, so my jeans always sit under my bum... it isn't a deliberate gangsta-ism...... or rent-boy-ism!) and was asking the other staff members if I was gay too and if they thought he was my type. - I couldn't really follow him up on it.

and just when I was feeling a little bit shit about the whole thing

Today I go into SPAR (a corner shop to the non-brits...?), I was stood in the line and this blonde guy came in, he was beautiful, deep blue eyes, a skater-ish look about him, with Westwood boots on (I dont have gaydar, but even I know that's a dead giveaway, no matter how deceptive he looked... :) ). I glanced at him and he was already looking at me. I smiled and he smiled too. We still kept eye contact, longer than any normal people would have. I was the first to break.

After I bought my stuff, I went to leave and I watched him in the reflection of the door. He was watching me leave. Actually WATCHING.

As the door closed I looked behind me through the glass. He glanced from the corner of his eye, I guess trying to make out he hadn't been looking. The assistant had to speak to get his attention.

MY GOD HE WAS BEAUTIFUL!

Now I don't want to create the image that this is a regular occurence. It REALLY isn't. Which is why I'm convinced something higher than me is having a laugh with my airtight chastity 'atm'.

Not gonna lie, it was exciting.

But now I'm extremely frustrated and I'm supposed to be going out with my (lesbian) friend Jenny for her girlfriends birthday on Monday and they are going out 'on the gay'. When Jenny asked me I could tell she had a bit of an alterior motive for inviting me (I'm convinced she knows... I'm probably being paranoid.) I dunno...

But I was promising myself I wasn't going to give anything away, but I'm worried that once I'm drunk I might end up doing something stupid.... I don't want me getting off with some guy to be my way of telling her..!

Jeezus. I'm horny. Not gonna lie.

I'm looking forward to my first time going out in the gay district here though!

I'm hopeless...

Sam

p.s. I'm currently writing the EPIC story that is Ben. Which is why I haven't posted in a while.... lol THAT'll be a fun read...

p.p.s I have had SO much sugar the past two days. I just ate a whole packet of revels and I'm buzzin... so sorry if this reads as a little hyper... it's 'cos I am...

so tired...