The 'Ben' Dream

Remember I mentioned there was a guy I was really attracted to?


Well I had a dream about him last night.


I think it might be because I wrote that post so late last night? I don't know -


I have never dreamt about Ben before. (the last 'crush' I dreamed about was a girl called Sierra from year 10 at secondary school!) But I'm unsure as to how to take it.


My dreams (aside from being rare in occurence) never seem to follow a narrative and are nearly always a symbolic apparation. (I once dreamed I was surrounded by women in red sari's walking on a river.) So I feel like, when they do happen, that they are usually trying to tell me something.


In this dream I was in a house (looked a bit like my aunties old house), stood at the bottom of the stairs, in the narrow hallway. The stairs were completely white and they stretched up onto the tudor style landing, a door was opposite the top of the stairs, it was open but I couldn't see what was inside. I looked up and Ben was sat at the top of the staircase, writing. I walked up and looked at him. We started having a conversation, but without words. I cant really explain it?!


I got this urge to kiss him, so I leaned in, he remained still. Then we sort of jumped back in time?


We we're both sat upright again, as though my kiss attempt never happened. I tried again and the same 'resetting' occurred. This time we both kinda moved in - and it reset. At this point I got annoyed and stood up. He followed me, turned me around on the landing and just as he looked like he was going to move in, my point of view changed. I was looking up from the bottom of the stairs, like I had at the start, at myself and Ben stood opposite each other, but a few seconds behind where we had just been. He looked (again) like he was about to kiss me and surprise sur-frikin-prise. Didn't. But instead he lifted me up, I wrapped my legs around his waist and he carried me through the (inwardly opening) door. Then the dream ended.


SO most of the time when I dream like this I read them up online to interpret them. Everytime I have checked the interpretations have definitely rang true for me. SO here's what this apparently means...




Kiss
To dream of a kiss, denotes love, affection, tranquility, harmony, and contentment. If the dream ends just about you are about to kiss someone, indicates that you are unsure of how he or she really feels about you.

To see a staircase in your dream, symbolizes change and transformation. 


To dream that you are walking up a flight of stairs, indicates that you are achieving a higher level of understanding. You are making progress into your spiritual/emotional/material journey. It also represents material and thoughts that are coming to the surface. 



To dream that you are entering through a door, signifies new opportunities that will be presented before you. You are entering into a new stage in your life and moving from one level of consciousness to another. In particular, a door that opens to the outside, signifies your need to be more accessible to others, whereas a door that opens into the inside, denotes your desire for inner exploration and self-discovery.


-(www.dreammoods.com)




Naturally I'm struggling to decide whether all this is good or bad news. I mean, I feel it's definitely right, the higher understanding part, the change and transformation starting, the desire for self-discovery and certainly the not knowing how he feels about me. 


But up till now my feelings about him were something that I have been trying to avoid. Mainly because I wasn't 100% sure about what I felt and since I never really had any confirmation from anywhere about it, I suppose I have been pushing it to the back of my head and trying to rationalise it out of existence. And yet here it is; subconsciously official, that I care a lot more than I am pretending to.


Great.


I guess he will have to be subject of the next LONG blog I feel like posting...


In the meantime I think I'm going over to Manchester to see Alex on my day off next week so I have a temporary distraction. lol.


Hope you're enjoying Boxing Day - sorry If you have work tomorrow =( - unless you enjoy work, in which case... well... I'm not sorry =)


As always if you're feeling a comment, drop it on me




Sam

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